School life, ive got to say, is getting a little mundane.
Put aside the studying, the books, the teachers, the students and you will get urself a life without a sense of direction.
I mean, im basically a little..lost. lol
I'm clear of what i should do, but yet im unclear of what has to be done.
I'm clear of the goal that im suppose to reach, but yet the process of how im gonna get there is still so vague.
And even so, how could I be so sure that the goal that I'm aiming for, is the goal that I'm suppose to be looking towards?

My family...somehow i just don't feel at home anymore. Goin home is almost the same as going to school. Everything all planned and restricted. Everything all quiet, all silent, all...dead.
Even my hamster seems like a lifeless animal right now. Though, i must admit, shes still as adorable as ever xDD.
The people above has a home much alive than mine currently. I'm the only one at home with only a few lights on, together with my hamham, while the people above have each other's company.
Zhao xia singing, music, laughter, sounds of joy. All in the home of my neighbours'.
It just gets all nostalgic today.
hah..a child singing into the microphone now. How i wish i could turn back time.
I guess there is just no point in regretting and moaning over what's lost huh. lol.

Don't really know why im feeling so down right now.
Maybe i'm just expressing what has been accumulated in my heart for the past few months, maybe i'm just bored and typing this post out of self-entertainment purposes, or maybe its just...the gloomy weather lol.

And after today, I find that ive no interest in being rich. Being rich makes life even more boring, even more lifeless. I mean yea, you can get almost anything in this world, anything materialistic. But i guess its all pointless when you have no one to share it with.
(Ok now that sentence just brought me to the conclusion that im feeling pretty lonely right now. lol. tt explains my post.)

It's pointless getting rich when it doesnt bring life into your life but rather brings you deeper and closer to being dead.

ok enuff of my random-ness.